A poem by my sweet friend and sister, Sophia.
Let me be me for just a moment
Let me be me and see for just a moment
Give this bitter heart glasses
Let this selfish girl see
Put it all in perspective, all in perspective for me
Maybe I cry because I don't look at the moon
Or hear crickets chirping on a night when you realize it's over so soon
The lights, the part, the action,
I find myself snatching at these things
Like they're all I have
Oh, what I miss
When I can't see past the lists
Of ways to get to You without forgetting who
Everyone else is, and where they fit in
And how it'll all work out
And if I'll ever kiss him
Lord, PLEASE don't let me miss it
The point
I don't want to go any further
So disjointed from my Father in Heaven
Do You look down on me?
I bet you wish I could see
the way You do...
I wish I know how it felt to not be afraid
Afraid of myself and what I could do
If I weren't strong enough
If I let those thoughts through
Lord, I am trying to change my mind
And my mouth
My words taste bitter as I let them out
And my laugh, oh, my laugh
How it stabs me in the back
It returns to haunt me
These things are so bad
Let me be me and see for a moment
Let me be me and see for just a moment
Hear the crickets, feel the moonlight
It's all You...
Don't let me lose sight.
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Young Waverer
Wandering soul, you seem so lost
You waver in the world
Unsure of who you are
Unsure of where you belong
Unsure of who to love and
Unsure how to be
Unsure, so unsure
Seasons come and scenery changes
People change too, but you're still holding on
Young waverer, why do you run?
Young waverer you look confused
You've got questions
I've got facts
You're not broken
Just off track
Young waverer, just off track
Talents and dreams, they fill your mind
And suddenly you fall behind
Blurry and distant, you can't see
Or do you not care?
What's going on around you
Behind the back you've turned
Young waverer why do you run?
Young waverer you look confused
You've got questions
I've got facts
You're not broken
Just off track
Young waverer
Seasons come and scenery changes
People change too, but you're still holding on
Holding on
On to the past, the things that have gone
Deluding yourself with fancies
Excluding yourself from friends
You've built yourself a wall,
A little hiding hovel,
Refusing to let anyone in...
Just spread your wings
And explore your world,
So long as you come home
You've things to learn,
So go and see
But guard your heart, young waverer
Wandering soul, you seem so lost
You waver in this twisted world
So unsure, young waverer
You're homeward bound
Young waverer.
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Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Dear Heart ~
A bruised and bloody heart
It's all I see right now
Bits and pieces missing
How I wish I had them all
I think about the piece you have
And wonder why I gave it
Can I say 'I want it back'?
Because, I think you hate it
What have yo done with my dear heart?
have you squirreled it away?
Added to your ever growing collection
Damned to be just another one
Dear heart, I'm sorry what I've done to you
Tearing you apart
I wish I could fix it, make it up to you,
But I don't know where to start
I can see that bit of heart I gave you
Thrown aside in the corner of your mind
You carry on, so unaware
of its sadness over being there
Hidden under a pile
Of all your rash and wanton thoughts
Smothered by things you wont let go
Stashed away in your dark and brooding heart
I think about the piece you have
And wonder why I gave it
Can I say 'I want it back'?
Because, I think you hate it
What use is it to you now,
Since you've gone and left me here?
Now I sit, alone and bitter
And you're off drinking beer
I hope you treat my dear heart well
You may not want it, but it's there
I tell you this so you can't say
That you were unaware
Because that bit is part of me
And I'm still very fragile
So please don't cause it much more pain
Because I know that I can't battle
A bruised and bloodied heart,
That's the image in my head
But soon that heart will heal
And I will move ahead.
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Thursday, October 13, 2011
Reminiscing at a glance
My heart is pounding
My eyes unfocused
My breathing heavy
As I remember
And try to keep my mind steady
Memories -
All come flooding back to me
Locked somewhere deep behind my eyes
Your touch
Your smell
Your voice
Your lies
All barely out of reach, but never truly lost
Uninvited guests
Making me uneasy
Yet, I hold them hostage
To torturously please me
Autumn's come, the colors changing
And of you, my thoughts have dwindled
But, I do still hope I catch your eye,
Searching for your glance as we pass,
Silently
There is no hope in that shared stare.
Just pained visions of the past
Memories of happy days
Days we'd hoped would last
- Posted from emikel's iPhone -
My eyes unfocused
My breathing heavy
As I remember
And try to keep my mind steady
Memories -
All come flooding back to me
Locked somewhere deep behind my eyes
Your touch
Your smell
Your voice
Your lies
All barely out of reach, but never truly lost
Uninvited guests
Making me uneasy
Yet, I hold them hostage
To torturously please me
Autumn's come, the colors changing
And of you, my thoughts have dwindled
But, I do still hope I catch your eye,
Searching for your glance as we pass,
Silently
There is no hope in that shared stare.
Just pained visions of the past
Memories of happy days
Days we'd hoped would last
- Posted from emikel's iPhone -
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
My Ocean and Me
Sometimes I feel like the Ocean and Me
Have more things in common than you can see
I'm sorry if I've hurt you
Drowned you in my pain
Immersed you in my passion
Swallowed by a wave of rage
Lately I've been the definition of confusion
Switching from blue skies to rain
Back and forth from peace to trepidation
Changing in the blink of your eye
When all I wish to do
Is hold you in my arms
And rock you back to sleep
To the rhythm of our hearts
It's you who calms my stormy moods
And stirs me up inside
You don't know it, but it's true,
But these feelings I must hide from you
Yes I'm as uncertain as the sea
Unsure of who I should be
If I should dash your heart upon the rocks,
Or pull you out to play
Should I let you float on by?
Watching from the corner of my eye
As I let you gently slip away
Unaware of me
Yes, sometimes I feel like the sea
Which means you don't really know me...
At all.
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Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Wonderings of a Beloved
I lay with eyes wide open
I'm gazing at the stars
Like a thousand brilliant diamonds
Skillfully placed above us
My mind is overwhelmed with beauty
As I hide in the stillness of the night
The darkness and the silence,
Both so easily shattered by a light,
Become a place of refuge
There's beauty all around me and
Sometimes it's hard to see
That the hand that formed creation
Also created me
What am I compared to stars?
To the oceans vast with life?
My intentions aren't always pure
My thoughts easily lead astray
My heart is bruised
and feet are bloody
Because I try to run away
I stumble and I weep
I fall
Oh how easily I fall
And still you pick me up,
and make me new
Ever singing "I love you."
I'm astounded by your mercy
Ever hungry for your grace
Your love is overwhelming
And in fear I hide my face
You've captured my attentions
and You're here to woo my damaged heart
These things I don't deserve,
Yet faithfully you give
I try to run away
and like a child I get lost
I forsake the one who gave me his life
and still he draws me near
So I will sing of this love I'm learning
Please, give me ears to hear.
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