Bitter

A poem by my sweet friend and sister, Sophia.

Let me be me for just a moment
Let me be me and see for just a moment
Give this bitter heart glasses
Let this selfish girl see
Put it all in perspective, all in perspective for me

Maybe I cry because I don't look at the moon
Or hear crickets chirping on a night when you realize it's over so soon

The lights, the part, the action,
I find myself snatching at these things
Like they're all I have
Oh, what I miss
When I can't see past the lists
Of ways to get to You without forgetting who
Everyone else is, and where they fit in
And how it'll all work out
And if I'll ever kiss him

Lord, PLEASE don't let me miss it
The point
I don't want to go any further
So disjointed from my Father in Heaven

Do You look down on me?
I bet you wish I could see
the way You do...

I wish I know how it felt to not be afraid
Afraid of myself and what I could do
If I weren't strong enough
If I let those thoughts through

Lord, I am trying to change my mind
And my mouth
My words taste bitter as I let them out
And my laugh, oh, my laugh
How it stabs me in the back
It returns to haunt me
These things are so bad

Let me be me and see for a moment
Let me be me and see for just a moment
Hear the crickets, feel the moonlight
It's all You...
Don't let me lose sight.