Far Away

Across the sea
From far away
I hear a voice
It calls my name

It beckons me
To come and see
The oceans blue
And fields of green

Wildflowers, red and free
Scattered around old olive trees
And still your voice entices me
"Please, my dear, run away with me!"

I look up,
see skies of grey
What keeps me here?
Why should I stay?

There's a whole new world,
Like in a dream,
Waiting just across the sea
A new life with adventure
Bursting from the seams

All around
What a shame
To live a life
Trapped in mundane

I hear my name
This time it's whispered
A haunting voice
insists and pleads
It floats, so soft, so sweet
And glides to me,
Across the seas

I run to the edge
I dive right in
Deciding now's the time I learn to swim
Determined to find my mythic friend
And discover this land on which he stands
Somewhere
Across the sea

Seeking Him Whom My Soul Loves

Take this heart, it's all yours
I'm tired of this role
I'm done playing the whore

I've chased after everything I could afford
Now my mind is more tired than my legs have ever been before

"Was it worth it?" You ask, as I'm lifted from the floor
"Yes" I answer
"If only to show me you are the only one I should adore"

You call out; arise, my love, my beautiful one, and come away...
Your love is sweet, draw me after you; let us run, I say

And so we do, in leaps and bounds
And my heart can feel eyes all around

They whisper of this long lost lover
One who doesn't stay under cover

Tall and ruddy, with eyes like fire
Oh, lover of my soul, come take me higher

I am seeking him whom my soul loves
With him, I find peace

If you find him let me know
I'm looking for the one whose life I need to lead

I should be your reflection in the mirror
Living a way unnatural to me

Despite my human inhibitions
You lived, and died, and rose for me

What love! What passion, overwhelming!
Give me grace for understanding

The height, the depth
The length, the width

Of this abounding love
I now hold in my hands

It scares me and I try to run
But again you take my hand.

You lead us through tumultuous waves
Toward the warm and stable sand

On backs we lie and count the stars
So numerous and grand

He tells of his love, greater than the stars
And I wonder...
How could I ever leave this man?

And yet I do
I shamefully slink away

But with graceful reprimand
He brings me back, tells me to stay

For I am his, and his alone
All others are sub par

And I again I wonder, and I swear
To never roam so far

Here I've built a sanctuary
A hiding place and shield

A refuge for the weak and wary
To You I gladly yield.

Running To Find You

Run away.
I just want to run away
From all these doubts and fears of disappointment
Feels like I'm going nowhere at the moment

Drive.
I wish I could drive through the night
Emerging in the soft glow of the morning light
Unafraid of not knowing when or where my journey ends

You.
Sometimes I wish you wouldn't plague me
Or that you'd swoop in and save me
From the chaos in my mind

But instead you hover
Like a shadow of a lover
You're there one day, then gone another
Like you can't make up your mind

Skip.
 I wish that I could skip somethings in life
Like this unpleasant feeling we call 'lonely'
But then I'd miss the whole adventure of you getting to know me

Though, I know there's so much more to living life

Life.
Why can't life, most days, be easy?
I feel like some days that I won't sleep until I die

So I content myself with dreaming
While through my window sunlight's gleaming

Because they who dream by day
are aware of so much more
than those who only dream at night

Night.
 For many, I feel, night is a truly confusing time of day
My body is weary
My feet are dragging
My mood is dreary
And yet, Night is when my imagination comes out to play

Here.
 Here is where I leave you
But where 'Here' is, is up to you
And with you, I leave an image
Though a rather fuzzy image:

Of a girl wandering through life
skipping town
driving through the night
A girl running away,
 just to find you.

Running away to find you, here.

A peculiar treasure

There is a girl I know, whose helping hands help people grow.
Her heart, so beautiful, is larger than the oceans
And when she speaks, love is verbally put into motion
Beloved by all, this girl of slight frame stands bold and tall
This gorgeous creature is blessed with compassion knowing no bounds, truly a heart for the lost
This gorgeous creature is blessed with skin the color of creamy coffee, and bouncy black raven locks
A precious and peculiar treasure, is this girl I know
For she belongs to a savior who's love has made her pure as snow
And though, some days, she feels crushed, as if by the whole world's cares(and sometimes told things that catch her unawares)
She will always have arms to run to
Arms ready for a sweet embrace
Arms to calm and reassure her
Arms that make her feel safe
For she is a peculiar treasure
One only a fool would let go
Unique and unattainable by all
Except the one who sees inside her soul
This is the girl I know
I call this girl my friend
This girl, like me, a peculiar treasure
One I'll cherish 'till the end.

Musings from a Tipsy Scatterbrain

your fingers pluck on my heartstrings like a skilled musician. The idea of you, as steady as a drum beat in my head. I peer into a sea of faces and wonder if you're lost in there, are you trying to get out? Or are you hiding instead? Being alone, and being happy. It's a hard thing to master. Especially when all around you everyone is paired together.
So, who are you? I'm dying to know!
My heart is calling out, it sings its song so loudly, trying to wait patiently for the return of its call. I'm searching for a pure heart. One that's brave and true. Kind and patient. Gentle, loving. Does this sound like you? Do your eyes see things the way they are, from a surface view? Or do you see with a creative imagination, making old things seem brand new?
Images in my head, belonging on an artist's wild canvas. But sometimes it's hard to find the right form of expression for all these thoughts found where head and heart meet. Should I use a gilded paint brush, or illustrate with my bruised and battered feet?
I need to move to think, it's just the way I am. On most days I need more then pen and ink to exercise my crazy plans.
If you think you can handle my insanity, well, then you're welcome to give it a shot. But I must shoot you a warning:
This brain and these emotions don't come equipped with a switch to turn things 'off'. I need a kindred spirit, someone who shares my goals. Someone to bring me coffee and a kiss at 3am when I'm tired and starting to feel slow.
Whisper that you love me.
Place a smile on my face.
Forgive me when I hurt you.
And share with me God's grace.
I can see you smiling as I place my hand in yours, as we walk down a path lined with trees. Our hair goes from dark to gray, and eventually we walk with canes.
You'll be my hero and my lifeline and keep me from going mad. I'll drive you towards insanity but you won't mind, because being crazy's not so bad.
I have many dreams of life, and love, and art, but you...
you yourself are a dream ...
But O, to dream! To dream is an experience I'll never forsake. For it's in the adventurous, nonsensical world of my imagination that I get to meet you.

A State of Melancholy

Oh melancholy me eyes full of tears will be I need someone to comfort me Oh will you soothe my sorrowful soul, And keep the tears at bay? If I unlocked my heart to you Would you come in, or run away? Oh sorrowful soul! Oh heavy heart! My body's full of fears For you, my love, have gone away And left me, lonesome, here I know that you're not out of reach And homeward bound will be But while you're gone, I'll sing our song And melancholy be

Young Waverer

Wandering soul, you seem so lost You waver in the world Unsure of who you are Unsure of where you belong Unsure of who to love and Unsure how to be Unsure, so unsure Seasons come and scenery changes People change too, but you're still holding on Young waverer, why do you run? Young waverer you look confused You've got questions I've got facts You're not broken Just off track Young waverer, just off track Talents and dreams, they fill your mind And suddenly you fall behind Blurry and distant, you can't see Or do you not care? What's going on around you Behind the back you've turned Young waverer why do you run? Young waverer you look confused You've got questions I've got facts You're not broken Just off track Young waverer Seasons come and scenery changes People change too, but you're still holding on Holding on On to the past, the things that have gone Deluding yourself with fancies Excluding yourself from friends You've built yourself a wall, A little hiding hovel, Refusing to let anyone in... Just spread your wings And explore your world, So long as you come home You've things to learn, So go and see But guard your heart, young waverer Wandering soul, you seem so lost You waver in this twisted world So unsure, young waverer You're homeward bound Young waverer.

Dear Heart ~

A bruised and bloody heart It's all I see right now Bits and pieces missing How I wish I had them all I think about the piece you have And wonder why I gave it Can I say 'I want it back'? Because, I think you hate it What have yo done with my dear heart? have you squirreled it away? Added to your ever growing collection Damned to be just another one Dear heart, I'm sorry what I've done to you Tearing you apart I wish I could fix it, make it up to you, But I don't know where to start I can see that bit of heart I gave you Thrown aside in the corner of your mind You carry on, so unaware of its sadness over being there Hidden under a pile Of all your rash and wanton thoughts Smothered by things you wont let go Stashed away in your dark and brooding heart I think about the piece you have And wonder why I gave it Can I say 'I want it back'? Because, I think you hate it What use is it to you now, Since you've gone and left me here? Now I sit, alone and bitter And you're off drinking beer I hope you treat my dear heart well You may not want it, but it's there I tell you this so you can't say That you were unaware Because that bit is part of me And I'm still very fragile So please don't cause it much more pain Because I know that I can't battle A bruised and bloodied heart, That's the image in my head But soon that heart will heal And I will move ahead.

My Ocean and Me

Sometimes I feel like the Ocean and Me Have more things in common than you can see I'm sorry if I've hurt you Drowned you in my pain Immersed you in my passion Swallowed by a wave of rage Lately I've been the definition of confusion Switching from blue skies to rain Back and forth from peace to trepidation Changing in the blink of your eye When all I wish to do Is hold you in my arms And rock you back to sleep To the rhythm of our hearts It's you who calms my stormy moods And stirs me up inside You don't know it, but it's true, But these feelings I must hide from you Yes I'm as uncertain as the sea Unsure of who I should be If I should dash your heart upon the rocks, Or pull you out to play Should I let you float on by? Watching from the corner of my eye As I let you gently slip away Unaware of me Yes, sometimes I feel like the sea Which means you don't really know me... At all.

Wonderings of a Beloved

I lay with eyes wide open I'm gazing at the stars Like a thousand brilliant diamonds Skillfully placed above us My mind is overwhelmed with beauty As I hide in the stillness of the night The darkness and the silence, Both so easily shattered by a light, Become a place of refuge There's beauty all around me and Sometimes it's hard to see That the hand that formed creation Also created me What am I compared to stars? To the oceans vast with life? My intentions aren't always pure My thoughts easily lead astray My heart is bruised and feet are bloody Because I try to run away I stumble and I weep I fall Oh how easily I fall And still you pick me up,  and make me new Ever singing "I love you." I'm astounded by your mercy Ever hungry for your grace Your love is overwhelming And in fear I hide my face You've captured my attentions and You're here to woo my damaged heart These things I don't deserve, Yet faithfully you give I try to run away  and like a child I get lost I forsake the one who gave me his life and still he draws me near So I will sing of this love I'm learning Please, give me ears to hear.